In the beginning God created the heaven and the earth and called it good …. Sometime after, he created you and I … and guess what? He called us good too!

You. Are. A. Masterpiece.

 Hi there, Cam here! So nice of you to join me. Do you have your coffee ready? (or tea for all of my caffeinated challenged folks *slight rolling of eyes*).

Well, pull up a chair and have a seat with me. Let’s chat.

Welcome to ….. *drumroll please*……..

The MSey Files.

A blog composed by me, for you..and, let’s be honest, I need this too. Life is hard. It can be absolutely messy…and for me, God decided to throw a little something extra to the mess…Multiple Sclerosis.

The year was 2014, and I was up early for work. After hitting the snooze on my phone’s alarm clock (multiple times) I finally stretched away the slumber and whispered a sweet thank you to God for allowing me to witness another sunrise. And then…I realized. I didn’t actually feel the phone that I not too long ago attacked to gain 5 more minutes of sleep I … I looked at my right hand in complete disbelief because..like with the motion of a rollercoaster ride…I felt my stomach drop… as I literally watched my hand lose all of its sensation. First my thumb, and then like a tidal wave I could see the sensation flow out of my hand completly by way of my fingertips…yet, I shrugged it off. Crazy I know…a lot of people would’ve run to the doctors but I, Camisha “happy happy joy joy” Farquharson…. went to work instead and tried to ignore the fact that my right hand…although functioning, was pretty much nonexistent in terms of feeling. It will go away eventually, I thought…. after all I’m 22 years old. Life is ripe and mine for the taking…. I’m invincible – God Is great, Life is great, what could possibly be wrong? Well, the next morning, as if almost jealous of the numbness in my right hand, the right side of my scalp and face joined the party. And the next morning, the feeling escaped from my right leg, and the next, the rest of my right side decided to play dead right along with the running list.… from my scalp down to my toes I became numb, all sensation muted…alive but invisible.…. naturally, fear started to take effect. But more than the fear of what was happening, I became fearful of morning, because despite the promised joy the Bible spoke off…for me, with morning, came another body part fading away, and I couldn’t understand why.

I couldn’t understand why…something was wrong with me to begin with. Why do I suddenly have an issue to deal with and how serious could this issue really be? All I kept thinking about was the fact that I had a term paper due, and a play to rehearse for and work to go to, and how absolutely inconvenient this fear was becoming…this…this issue was becoming. I couldn’t be unhealthy, God is fair, right?

So, I suppressed it. And carried on like absolutely nothing was wrong. Like the fatigue I felt was solely due to it being my last semester of undergrad. Like the numbness I felt, was a passing growth sprut…a hormonal hurdle or something that every 22 year old encounters…I convinced myself that this issue was simply something “normal” they forgot to mention in our health books, right? Oh, the things we tell ourselves to try and justify the plan God has laid out for us….especially when that plan doesn’t look like what you imagined your life would be….

On October 28th 2014..a week before my birthday and 2 months before graduating with my Bachelors, I was diagnosed with MS. My world stopped, & fear crippled me more than the potential effects of the disease ever could…

But God.

Wow. 4 years. 4 years of tears, anger, denial, people leaving, growth, love, strength and most importantly … God showing just how mighty He really is. I’ve come to such an awesome place and have realized that although I have this, it doesn’t have me. With God, everyting we are given is placed strategically there for Him to get the glory. Everything.

And that, is exactly what I intend to do for the rest of my life, even with this.

Especially with this.

My friends. Whatever it is you are dealing with…whatever the curveball you feel God has thrown you..in an already messy life….I want to encourage you by saying….You have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved. Don’t let them down, your story is so much bigger than you.

And It only took me four years to figure that out..

For those newly diagnosed, or veterans..we all know that this disease effects everyone differently and although I’m welcoming you to my journey…we are all in this together, weakness made strong by such a loving God.

Well, my coffee is getting cold, time for me to sign off. But before I do…

Remember, you. are.a.masterpiece and although life can get MSey, keep Moving forward – you can do all things.

“I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me” – Philippians 4:13